Playing the Hand You’re Dealt


Again, it’s been a hot roughly 6 million minutes since I last reviewed an album here—by the same guy. And you really oughta have it, for much the same reasons as then. But let’s catch up a bit first. . . .

Since the wonderful Lands and Peoples (my favorite from his now 15-plus-year “high-desert [New Mexico] period,” after starting out in the ’90s in Athens, GA with his full and life-changing band Vigilantes of Love), the ever-profilic Bill Mallonee—I mean, we’re talking close to 100 albums at this point—has kept on cranking them out.

One release in particular from the past decade bears pointing out, as it directly informs this new one. His 2022 release Here It Opens with a Prayer, but It Closes with a Song was fueled in large part by some significant health issues Bill was facing. And nowhere was that more apparent than the closer “Whatever’s Left of Me Now,” which for my money is his best song since the heartbreaking yet life-affiming “Bank” from 2005’s Permafrost. Haunting and haunted, it was the sound of someone who wasn’t at all sure this wouldn’t be his last song (of course, we never are, but) . . . “so, for now, we wait.” The strained howl at the end gets me every time. But to all our reliefs, survive he did. And the initial musical response to that was the roughly two dozen of the songs that make up the majority of (this version of) Glimmer, a deep if sometimes still dark sigh of relief and a deeper appreciation of life as it comes.

But even the album itself has had quite the road to travel. Initial crowdfunding efforts to get this thing out on CD failed, and so Bill put it out as a 22-song download-only releasein 2024. Then came last year’s Trailways, which did make it to CD—in turn fueling another attempt to give Glimmer the treatment it deserved. This time the good guys won and won big, and as a result the initial release is now expanded to 29 songs (plus alternate takes of two of the new ones). In essence, Bill added an entire album to the original—some leftovers from the original Glimmer sessions, some newer—to an already hefty release, resulting in the longest album you’ll probably ever hear that isn’t called Sandinista. 😀 And it’s all from the past 2–3 years. (Told you he was prolific.) So let’s get to it, and suffice to say I won’t be talking about every song. . . .

Bill Mallonee. Glimmer. 152 minutes (that’s not a typo), 2CD $25 + shipping, or download Glimmer 1 or Glimmer 2 from Bandcamp.

It’s worth noting that there’s a bit of difference between disks 1 and 2. The first feels a bit more organic, loose, and cohesive, while disk 2 is a bit more faster-then-slower (as well as higher-and-lower—hey, it’s 150-plus minutes, kids; it was gonna happen). Nonetheless, the phrase I come away with here is after taking it all in is “deeply satisfying”—especially knowing what it took for this album to finally get its due, both physically and personally.

For those who know their Bill (and those who don’t), at this point in his career most of the Neil Youngisms that were in the forefront in his earlier high-desert period have faded into the background (the “Down by the River”-ish standout “Scarecrow Heart” from disk 2 notwithstanding), replaced largely by a more swaying rock-country sound. It’s clearly Bill’s own solo version and vision of Americana now. (Vigilantes of Love, of course, was quite another.) Also, not sure what it is exactly, but this new version sounds decidedly warmer that the original download version, so kudos to whoever worked that out.

Disk 1 does have its standouts, starting with the wry optimism (or perky pessimism) of the opener “Not Enough Bandages in the Infirmary”:

There are people you will hurt
there are people you will heal
there are treasures you will stumble on
while out walking in the field
And the malaise runs deep
Deeper than eyes could see
and there are not enough bandages
in the infirmary

The spectre of mortality that was all over Here It Opens . . . still makes regular guest appearances here, only now for the most part Bill just tips his cap and walks on, as with “The Other Side of the Veil”: “You can call me a heretic, ah, but I don’t know / When everyone sees love’s banquet, they’re all gonna wanna go . . . / Didn’t no one ever tell you, the undertaker overtook? / This side of the veil.” Likewise, “You’re Gonna Be Alright” marvels (along with its subtitle), “It’s been a year like no other / I’d go as far to say: ‘Ain’t it been a life?'” And as he adds quite directly on side 2’s “Walk on the Razor’s Edge,” “There’s nothing like mortality / to throw in sharp relief.”

The first disk also benefits from a few looser moments that break up the mid-tempo toughmindedness (both featuring some playful harmonica work near the end), particularly “From Pillar to Post” (that rarity of rarities, a sub-two-minute Bill Mallonee song ;)), and the acoustic, darkly humorous “Crickets (Off the Cuff & the Fly)”:

Now, Thomas, I hate to barge in here like this
but things are about to get rough
And if wounds are what you’re looking for
Well, I hope 5 are enough . . .

I hear the nation capitulated to the darkness & the dread
to hacks, charlatans & demagogues who painted their towns “red”
Waving Bibles rarely opened, and much less even read . . .

And how can you not love a song entitled, “One Day I’ll Be Your Answer, Dear, but I’ll Be Your Question First” (some nice, gently psychedelic Fetal Position/Perfumed Letter-era touches at the end of this one, too)?

And speaking of Thomas, there’s ample faith-in-the-midst-of-doubt (and vice versa) throughout, nowhere captured better than in the original disk 1 closer, the gently chugging “Put My Finger In The Wound When I Had To”:

All the voices at the table made me think I might be dammed
And the instruments for navigating were salt-rusted & jammed . .
.
I needed something bracing
I needed something beyond 5 senses
I needed something to awaken me
just like what Jesus calls us to.
So, I stumbled thru the night

& I rejoiced in the day
& I put my finger in the wound when I had to.

So onward to disk 2, and since the highlights speak for themselves I’ll let them. By and large it’s the faster ones that win out for me, although among slower ones I’m also partial to the ballad-y “The Self-Inflicted Kind”: “These are the days of slings & arrows and paying dues / And I can tell you’ve dodged a few / If you catch me walkin’ wounded / cross on over to the other side / ‘Cause most of these wounds are the self-inflicted kind.”

The obvious “single” (well, 1 of 2, but I’ll get to that—interestingly, both have a hitting-the-road theme to them) is the (no pun intended) driving “Nothing Left to Do, Pretty Baby (but Turn the Key),” another paean to moving on:

Truck’s all packed, can’t find the words.
Coffee cup perched on the dashboard;
We did our best & we did what’s right
We had moments bathed in O’Keeffe light
Till days got rough & times, they got lean…
Nothing left to do, pretty baby, but turn the key

Hearts got heavy; they dropped like a stone
Hope shakes hands with the great unknown
I knew my lines and I knew my part
Till a nation died and it all went dark
Locust years & hearts got mean
Nothing left to do, pretty girl, but turn the key.

My favorite “deep cut” on the album, though—and the one I’ll be playing at open mic at the end of the year for my “this year’s music recap” set—is “Levee.” The richest-sounding of all the songs here, it also comes with some extra helpings (even for Bill) of loss, logismoi (look it up), and quiet dignity:

Bolt upright in the middle of the night
sweatin’ bullets thru my skin
Is that you. Panic, my old friend
How’d you let yourself in?
Is there something we need to talk about?
or are you here to test my mettle?
You know, I’m not made of such stern stuff
Is there some business we need to settle?
. . .

well, the levee’s gonna break
and she’ll hardly make a sound
earth & water kiss & mingle
as we beat it to higher ground
swept away like leaves
tiny boats in the tidal wave
She’s making no distinctions
between the sinner & the saint

You play the hand that you were dealt
Don’t pay it any mind just how you felt
Ever since God knows when
How’d ya’ wind up on the losing end?

The original closer, “Bordertown,” is another slow elegy to new losses, new beginnings, somehow surviving all of it, and for that matter being in the middle of all of it with the one you love:

Wipe the dust off of your neck . . . border town
Remember to forget . . . border town
You whisper but never shout.
Most folks long ago got out.

Time goes backwards to go forward
Everyone waiting the coming of the Lord
Every new start’s a dead end . . . border town
What’s unspoken? Is deafening . . . border town
Wipe the dust off of your neck.
There’s a risk with every bet . . . border town

It all trails off into ether, each & every phrase
Ah, but every morning I awake.
Baby, I’m amazed
And I wish you’d stick around.

That said, I’m really glad Bill chose to end the new version on a more optimistic and decidedly lighter note. The title of the “other single,” the rather fun “Park Your Feet Upon the Dashboard (and Enjoy the View)” is probably self-explanatory, but for those in the audience who may need more convincing by now, it’s the sound of someone who’s ready to pack up the guitar, deal with the vagaries of touring, and go once more into the breach:

it’s time to gather up the pages
It’s time to change the tubes
Time to dust off the old cases
and change a string or two
Who knows how the miles change us
and who cares if they do?
Park your feet up on the dashboard
and enjoy the view . . .

Be it thoughtful and articulate
or be it loud as hell
It’s been known to take down a few fascists
And ring clear as a bell

You could it a fool’s errand
You might call it one big crutch
Life is trying to get the sound man
to turn the damn monitors up . . .

Hey, have you ever seen a day like this?
Those skies are oh-so-blue
Park your feet up on the dashboard
and enjoy the view
.

Need a traveling companion for this rough and joyous thing called life? I’d be hard-pressed to think of a better one. Heck, he’s been there for me enough times in the past few decades (and even in person on a couple occasions, and the last song gives me hope for yet one more visit to my part of the high desert of Colorado, only this time Western Slope instead of Front Range). But hey, click those Bandcamp links and find out for yourself.

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How I Spent My 7-Year Vacation


Wow, has it really been that long? (Well, 6 2/3, but close enough.)

I mean, not that there haven’t been regular updates to this blog during that time, but with exceptions few and far between they’ve been of the “reprint marketing copy for a book I’ve worked on and add a pithy intro to it” variety, which is fine and some people have found it helpful. But lately, I’ve been thinking about how to reengage with this thing on a more personal level.

Suffice to say the firehose of changes in my life over the past year have had something to do with that. But before going there, let’s briefly recap. I wrapped up my final reposting of entries from my last book Lay It Down in December 2019. (Yeah.) Since then. . . .

2020: Well, I think y’all know what happened then (although there really wasn’t much correlation between that and my “pulling back”). Also of note: After four rounds of “hired, then entire department laid off” over nine years, I got the job I’m still at today, which in turn allowed us to move across the Continental Divide to the place we planned on spending our retirement years, literally down the road from Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park.

2021: Eight-and-a-half months after we moved here, Marion, my wife of nearly 36 years, passed from a heart attack. Four months later, my dad—i.e., the man who first introduced me to Jesus after I got to know him again as a young man (my dad, that is)—passed from COVID. Not an easy year, specifically the final six months. On a more positive note, during that same time I started playing open mics at the Creamery Arts Center in Hotchkiss. Although we’ve needed to relocate around the corner and are looking to regain the old mojo, I’m/we’re still doing it—and I still haven’t repeated a song. 😀 At the time especially, though, it was an absolute lifeline.

2022: God takes away and God gives: In the space of a little more than three months—and again, in the latter half of the year—I gain a son-in-law and a granddaughter (via each of my two daughters—and thus also gained a grandson earlier this year). I will also say, without going into detail, that a lot of relational and general emotional healing began taking place during this time.

Fast-forward to August 2025: Although I’d already done the online dating thing on-and-off for a few years (and yeah, got my heart broken a few times), I went once more into the breach. This time I connected with a woman with Colorado Springs (now 240 miles from home, for those keeping score), and while I reeeeeeeeeeally didn’t want to do the long-distance thing, this one was intriguing from the get-go, and quickly got more intriguing as we went along—and even more amazingly, she thought the same in return. So, first weekend of September, I began the first of a bunch of mutual road trips (and it is a beautiful drive for 90% of it).

She showed me a ton of places from throughout her life on that first visit (yep, she’s a native). And finally, she showed me her church, only from the outside for now as it was a Saturday. As a self-described “evangelical mutt,” Eastern Orthodoxy was the furthest thing from my own Christian experience. But once I saw her devotion up close and personal, I knew I wanted both her and what she had. She’d actually been in the evangelical world as a young adult before walking away from it (for some very unsavory and thus understandable reasons), but much to her own shock and joy discovered this church a couple years ago. Whereas I’d remained “in the game” for 40-plus years, even while “the game” had basically left me behind over the last two decades, turned into something Jesus had never signed me up for, and left me increasingly disconnected and hardened. (Are you starting to sense the real reasons for my “vacation”? Anyway . . .)

On the next trip, I got inside said church, and they pretty much had me at the first (of hundreds of) “Lord have mercy(s)”—I was already verklempt. (On that note, this came just today [Saturday] and explains it better than I can—and in a way I’d always intuited in my spirit but seldom had affirmed by other human beings.) And that woman next to me kept getting more beautiful. In short, I was getting busted open in every way possible (and we’re not done yet, kids).

In the months to come, we’d grow even closer. I read (and still do, and will) to her almost every night, and then we’d talk some more about anything and everything, from Queen to Dostoevsky* to Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer** to Father Arseny to Mystery Science Theater 3000 and back. And in May—in the very same spot where I first knew—I asked her to marry me, and she said yes. And so, Cecelia soon-to-be-Simmons and I will be wed this coming Sunday—a year and a day after our first in-person date—this time inside that very same church. And then, we come back to Crawford, Colorado to start our new life together.

And for those who haven’t yet put the other dots together, here it is: two weeks ago, I was baptized anew, into the Orthodox church (of America, but they’re all the same in essence, if somewhat varied in national flavorings) that we’ll be attending on the Western Slope. If I see you there, call me Ephrem. 🙂 I didn’t know it when I first embarked, but as it turns out I’m the latest in a pretty significant spiritual migration that’s ramped up especially in the past couple years (and includes pretty much every priest and deacon I’ve encountered). It has been and remains quite the learning curve, but a rich and deep one that isn’t going to stop . . . well, ever, if I’m doing it right.

So, in the midst of all of this reignition and reorientation, I’m been feeling the writing bug a bit again, especially as my freelance outlets for same have dried up. (I’m still editing, of course.) Of course there’ll still be marketing-blurb “reviews” for stuff I’ve worked on, but let’s go ahead and start mixing it up here. No more rehashes of old books (for obvious reasons). Ideas for new books? Who knows? I have at least a couple one-off ideas for entries after the honeymoon—one music review (and longtime visitors will know who) and a review of a book I recently worked on and liked too much to want to give the generic marketing-copy treatment.

And then . . . I guess we’ll all see.

* Many of y’all wouldn’t know this (although some of you do), but I first “knew that I knew that I knew” while reading Crime and Punishment in a Jersey gas station where I worked, nearly 43 years ago. Dostoevsky, for some pretty obvious reasons (see especially The Brothers Karamazov), is often called “the great Orthodox novelist.” So full circle indeed. To quote Bono (from a song only a handful of months older than my “Dostoevsky moment”—and don’t think it wasn’t working on me then too), “I, I will begin again . . .”.

** P.S. Charlie-in-the-Box loves Dolly. ❤

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God’s Marriage Blueprint


Learning to become one . . .

David Hazelton, with Nancie and Bill Carmichael. God’s Marriage Blueprint: Restoring the Beauty of God’s Original Design. 125p., $14.99, Morgan James Faith.

David Hazelton, with the mind of a high-powered lawyer and the heart of a Sunday School teacher, dives into God’s plan for marriage. 

With clarity and conviction, David explores God’s divine blueprint for marriage at the dawn of creation. The Bible’s opening chapters explain that men and women are created equally in God’s image and are given responsibilities that can only be accomplished together. In the sanctity of marriage, the two are to become “one,” which involves a spiritual, emotional, and physical union.

But sin has a devasting effect on marriage. It introduces shame, fear, and guilt that can divide a couple. Instead of oneness, there is a competition for control that distorts God’s creation plan. These issues are beyond human capacity to resolve, requiring divine intervention and guidance.

In God’s Marriage Blueprint, Hazelton presents a restorative vision for marriage. This vision is not a human invention but is built on the life and teaching of Christ. God’s Marriage Blueprint offers insights into the original design for marriage and practical pathways for couples to reclaim their relationships as beautiful, harmonious partnerships intended by the Creator. 

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Evangelism and the Great Commission


On sharing the Word. . . .

Shane Pruitt and Bobby Worthington. Evangelism and the Great Commission: Reflections on Sharing and Cultivating the Gospel. 192p., $24.99, Kregel Ministry.

Evangelism and the Great Commision provides the right kind of help for churches, organizations, and individuals struggling with evangelism. Showing how evangelism can become a regular part of prayer, teaching, modeling, and practice, this book points out the path faithful evangelists tread and prepares readers for the terrain.

Shane Pruitt and Bobby Worthington have compiled a theological, biblical, practical, and inspiring evangelism guide. Contributors representing distinct evangelism experience, research, and study convey the simple yet complex reality of reaching out with the truth of Christ, covering topics such as:

Grasping the content of the gospel Christians share.
Filling the distinct biblical roles of evangelism.
Reaching diverse people groups effectively.
Keeping both a multigenerational and an eternal perspective.

Evangelism and the Great Commission highlights why evangelism must be a primary focus for believers and outlines how to make that happen. Pruitt, Worthington, and others share valuable resources to sharpen your own, your organization’s, and your church’s evangelism and reach key groups of people who often miss Christian gospel efforts.

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Faith-Affirming Findings


The archaeological stories behind the biblical stories. . . .

Paul D. Weaver. Faith-Affirming Findings: 50 Archaeological Discoveries that Validate the Historicity and Reliability of Scripture. 360p., $46.99, Kregel Academic.

If the Bible is inspired and inerrant, then the archaeological record will affirm it. And it does. In Faith-Affirming Findings, Bible scholar and Dallas Theological Seminary professor Dr. Paul D. Weaver examines fifty of the most important archaeological discoveries that confirm the historical reliability of Scripture.

Each discovery—from ancient inscriptions to burial sites—sheds light on the biblical narrative and reinforces the trustworthiness of God’s Word. In this intricately designed, 360-page hardcover volume, Dr. Weaver discusses findings such as the “House of David” Stele, the Moabite Stone, Hezekiah’s Tunnel, the Lachish Relief, the Cyrus Cylinder, and more.

Inside you’ll find

  • detailed descriptions of each artifact, site, and its biblical significance,
  • over 100 full-color photos that bring the findings to life,
  • the locations of museums where these artifacts can be viewed,
  • extensive bibliographical resources for deeper study,
  • over 450 footnotes, a glossary, and a biblical passage index, and
  • links to supplemental study material.

This comprehensive volume is an interactive learning experience for everyone, whether you are a pastor, teacher, student, or simply someone seeking stronger confidence in the reliability of Scripture. Faith-Affirming Findings will inspire your faith and deepen your understanding of God’s Word by demonstrating how archaeology consistently supports the Bible.

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Kerux: 1 Corinthians


Rubber, meet road. Headstrong church, meet Paul. . . .

Michael H. Burer and David B. Kieffer, 1 Corinthians: A Commentary for Biblical Preaching and Teaching. Kerux Commentaries. 360p., $29.99, Kregel Academic.

Each volume uniquely combines the insights of an experienced Bible exegete (trained in interpretation) and a homiletician (trained in preaching). These two authors work together to explain the essential message for the original listeners or readers, unpack its timeless truth, and then provide a contemporary restatement and communication insights for the key biblical concept. Every book is written with the real needs of the pastor and teacher in sight, providing many ways to creatively express the principal thought of a biblical passage.

The Corinthian church was home to a wide array of different ethnicities, cultures, and social classes. Consequently, the church had numerous problems living out its proper identity as the body of Christ. Authors Michael H. Burer and David B. Kieffer show how, with deep theological reflection and application, Paul addressed the factionalism, social stratification, theological issues, and harmful behaviors that had been imported into the church.

Based on the Big Idea preaching model, Kerux enhances the reader’s ability to deliver a message that is biblical, cohesive, and dynamic.

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40 Questions About Mormonism


What does Mormonism get right, and what does it get wrong? And what do outsiders get wrong about Mormonism?

Kyle Beshears. 40 Questions About Mormonism. 40 Questions Series. 352p., $26.99, Kregel Academic.

Many Christians struggle to form an accurate picture of the beliefs, practices, and attraction of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. 40 Questions About Mormonism addresses how the Mormon faith developed, what it teaches, and how it differs from traditional Christianity.

Author Kyle Beshears draws on years of dialogue with LDS church members to ask and answer the most pertinent questions for understanding today’s Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, covering history, sources of authority, doctrines shared with Christianity, unique doctrines, and more. Among the questions addressed, these are included:

  • Is Mormonism just an American religion?
  • How do Latter-day Saints view the Bible?
  • What is the origin of the priesthood?
  • What is the Latter-day Saint view of Jesus Christ?
  • Why does Mormonism have temples?
  • What are concerns Latter-day Saints have about traditional Christianity?

The historically and biblically discerning answers allow readers to better understand both traditional Christian faith and the distinctive elements of Mormonism. Readers will feel more confident forming friendships with LDS adherents, viewing them as neighbors whom God loves and witnessing to them as such. Instructor resources are available at 40questions.net.

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My Sheep Follow Me


On the importance on perseverance . . .

Jonathan R. Pratt. My Sheep Follow Me: A Study of Perseverance and the Threat of Antinomianism. 176p., $22.99, Kregel Academic.

Christian teaching is often clear about justification—how God saves his people—but murky about sanctification, or perseverance—how believers grow in closeness to God over time. Jonathan R. Pratt explores what progress toward holiness looks like and how it takes place.

My Sheep Follow Me begins with an investigation of the New Testament’s teaching on perseverance:

  • Jesus’s metaphors, including the “fruit” of belief, obedience, and love;
  • Paul’s demonstration of believers’ righteous responses to the Holy Spirit
  • belief as evidence in the letters of Paul and others;
  • promises of God’s help in perseverance; and
  • God’s use of his Word, suffering, the church, and prayer to assure his people’s perseverance in faith.

Pratt then surveys how antinomianism, common Protestant Christianity both historically and today, threatens biblical teaching. He shows how a biblical doctrine of perseverance squelches the devastating effects of ignoring God’s spiritual gifts to believers. My Sheep Follow Me offers important cautions of distorted teaching and valuable encouragement in the process of Christian growth.

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Kerux: Joshua


Entering the Promised Land was just the beginning. . . .

Randall L. McKinion and Jason K. Lee. Joshua: A Commentary for Biblical Preaching and Teaching. Kerux Commentaries. 256p., $28.99, Kregel Academic.

Kerux Commentaries enable pastors and teachers to understand and effectively present the main message in a biblical text. Each volume uniquely combines the insights of an experienced Bible exegete (trained in interpretation) and a homiletician (trained in preaching). These two authors work together to explain the essential message for the original listeners or readers, unpack its timeless truth, and then provide a contemporary restatement and communication insights for the key biblical concept. Every book is a resource designed and written with the real needs of the pastor and teacher always in view, providing many ways to creatively express the principal thought in a biblical passage.

The book of Joshua acts as a hinge within the biblical text: it connects the promises of God to Abraham and their initial fulfillment through Moses to the stories of the judges, kings, and exilic communities. Likewise, the themes of covenant, law, land, and obedience provide a theological framework for understanding the narrative arch of the book, the larger story of Israel’s relationship with YHWH, and the coming promised seed of Abraham. Through Joshua, then, the believer is given a view into God’s faithfulness in past times and a vision for his faithfulness in the future.

Based on the Big Idea preaching model, Kerux enhances the reader’s ability to deliver a message that is biblical, cohesive, and dynamic.

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Instructional Strategies for Christian Teachers


Teaching the Bible better . . .

James Riley Estep Jr. and Jay L. Sedwick, eds. Instructional Strategies for Christian Teachers: How to Teach the Bible and Theology in the Church and School. 360p., $28.99, Kregel Academic.

The best teachers in any discipline use diverse instructional models to foster all aspects of learning. Instructional Strategies for Christian Teachers combines theological and biblical insight with tested teaching methods, providing a targeted guide for those preparing to teach within environments such as churches, ministries, Bible colleges, Christian universities, and seminaries.

The editors and other expert educators systematically address teacher training and focus on planning strategically for various learning outcomes. Contributors address uniquely Christian topics alongside vital instructional approaches.

Complete with reflection questions, video supplements, graphics, diagrams, and distinctly Christian examples, Instructional Strategies for Christian Teachers offers a strong and promising foundation for those already teaching or planning to teach in a Christian context.

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